A fascinating account of a middle-aged woman’s one-month quest for mental stability through LSD microdosing. From the day she receives the mysterious package in the mail from a “Lewis Carroll”, we get to follow her courageous journey in all it’s bizarre, funny and realistic detail. Ayelet spares the reader nothing, delving into her struggles with mood disorders, marriage (to author Michael Chabon), mothering, work and the mundane daily tasks we all face. But, this is so much more than just a personal memoir. It is also a powerful indictment of America’s so-called “war on drugs” and how misguided it is, as well as a deep philosophical and historical examination of mind-altering substances and how, when approached responsibly, can deepen and enlighten the human experience. This is a thinking person’s memoir that challenges many of our preconceived notions and encourages us to think outside of the box.— From Alissa
The true story of how a renowned writer’s struggle with mood storms led her to try a remedy as drastic as it is forbidden: microdoses of LSD. Her revealing, fascinating journey provides a window into one family and the complex world of a once-infamous drug seen through new eyes.
When a small vial arrives in her mailbox from "Lewis Carroll," Ayelet Waldman is at a low point. Her moods have become intolerably severe; she has tried nearly every medication possible; her husband and children are suffering with her. So she opens the vial, places two drops on her tongue, and joins the ranks of an underground but increasingly vocal group of scientists and civilians successfully using therapeutic microdoses of LSD. As Waldman charts her experience over the course of a month--bursts of productivity, sleepless nights, a newfound sense of equanimity--she also explores the history and mythology of LSD, the cutting-edge research into the drug, and the byzantine policies that control it. Drawing on her experience as a federal public defender, and as the mother of teenagers, and her research into the therapeutic value of psychedelics, Waldman has produced a book that is eye-opening, often hilarious, and utterly enthralling.
About the Author
AYELET WALDMAN is the author of the novels Love and Treasure, Red Hook Road, Love and Other Impossible Pursuits, and Daughter's Keeper, as well as of the essay collection Bad Mother: A Chronicle of Maternal Crimes, Minor Calamities, and Occasional Moments of Grace, and the Mommy-Track Mystery series. She was a federal public defender and taught a course on the legal implications of the War on Drugs at the UC Berkeley law school. She lives in Berkeley, California, with her husband, Michael Chabon, and their four children.
“Genuinely brave and human… In normalizing the conversation about LSD, she may one day help others feel normal.” —Jennifer Senior, The New York Times
"A wildly brilliant, radically candid, and rigorous daybook of [Waldman’s] life-changing, last-resort journey." —Lisa Shea, Elle
"Relentlessly honest and surprisingly funny." —Sharon Peters, USA Today
"An intriguing and thorough look at the therapeutic possibilities of an illegal drug... Engaging and deeply researched." —Nora Krug, The Washington Post
"Smart, outspoken, provoking, and funny… Poignant, sometimes hilarious... Waldman calls for renewed research and drug-law reform in this informative, candid, altogether irresistible quest." —Donna Seaman, Booklist
"Honest and intelligent… A humane, well-reasoned, and absolutely necessary argument for a major overhaul of America’s drug policy. The book triumphantly coheres in a lucid manifesto of how and why the racist, immoral undertaking called the War on Drugs has failed… Passionate, persuasive." —Claire Vaye Watkins, The New Republic